House - Xmas

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"Yes," Fox gasped. "I want to feel you. I want to know you."

His hand slid from House's hip to his cock, taking him in hand and stroking him slowly.

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[drfeelbad]

House trailed his fingers down Fox's arm. "Don't you think you should let me decide what will make me happy? And what I'm willing to do?"

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Fox slipped an arm around him, then sighed.

"I suppose," he agreed quietly, though it was clear Fox was uncomfortable with the idea of it coming up at all. As though he was afraid of spoiling something.

[drfeelbad]

House pulled away just enough that he could look at him. "Fox, I'm not sure if you understand what a big deal this is for me. I haven't felt this way about.... anyone, in a very long time. I want to fight for it."

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Fox hadn't either. Maybe ever, if he was honest. He'd never truly connected with someone, not like this.

He remained silent a moment, one hand finding Greg's and holding on.

"I will linger then. We can linger."

[drfeelbad]

House squeezed his hand. "I don't want to push you," he said. "Only if you feel the same way. But if you do... I'd prefer to face the rest of it together, rather than you deciding for me."

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"I understand," Fox said, hesitating before adding, "And I do. I... I feel the same, I think. I feel... I am attached to you. I care for you. I feel best when we are together."

[drfeelbad]

House relaxed a little. Though he did say after a moment, "And even... when my leg is gone again?"

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"Yes," Fox said, curling up closer again. "My heart is with your heart."

[drfeelbad]

"Okay," House murmured, still stroking his arm. "Though just be warned the sex won't be as good..."

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"Is that fact, or what you have imagined to be true?" Fox asked. "If there are times you feel you want to be-"

Fox paused, clearly struggling to translate something.

"If you want this, I will give it to you," he said, squeezing Greg's leg. "I can do that. Maybe not always, but sometimes."

[drfeelbad]

"I mean, I just... it limits what I can do," House said softly.

He reached down and placed his hand over Fox's, feeling the skin of the leg. "I won't lie, this is amazing," he said quietly. "To be able to move as I like, and without pain... but I also don't want it to cost you. I have lived a long time with one leg. I can cope."

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Fox nodded a bit in understanding.

"Maybe one day we will make a deal," he offered, even though he knew that probably wasn't a good idea.

[drfeelbad]

"In the short term..." House's trailing fingers moved to his chest. "Perhaps we could... have another go, at some point before the magic wears off?"

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Fox smiled at that, starting to purr again. "I would like that."

[drfeelbad]

House nuzzled against his neck. "Though, I'd like to know... when I bit you, should I not do that?" He'd had trouble interpreting Fox's reaction.

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"I... I liked it," Fox admitted, visibly embarrassed.

[drfeelbad]

"Harder next time then?" House murmured, and kissed his neck.

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Fox shivered a little, looking embarrassed by his own desires.

"Next time," he agreed quietly.

[drfeelbad]

"Don't be embarrassed, Fox," House said softly. "I'd prefer if you're honest with me. Your honesty is one of the things I like about you."

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"Then know it's honesty when I tell you it feels shameful," Fox said quietly. "...I don't want to speak about it anymore tonight. Please, it's been so lovely. I want it to remain that way."

[drfeelbad]

House found this a bit disquieting, but for the time being, he just kissed Fox's forehead and said, "Yes, it's been wonderful." Dropping the subject entirely.